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 ” ومن order gabapentin online overnight يتقى الله يجعل له مخرجا ويرزقه من حيث لا يحتسب “

A while ago, a miracle just happened to me. Allah the Al-Mighty have blessed me with an unbelievable exit from this mess. An exit that will save my dignity for sure. I refused to take a simple exit that is socially acceptable but to god its 7aram. and now, allah helped me out o gave me an exit he allows.

 Sej ilee allah plans are the best plans. At least now i know who deserves my help and who doesnt. I have learned my lesson the hard way.

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5  minutes ago, i realized that being all helpful and nice and stand by those who love you when in need is not all thats cracked up to be…

Being selfish is the best BEST solution ever… a way of life that guarantees no heart is broken

I am not a person who would stand by and watch when i have someone i care about in need. Whether its advice, money, love, help, whatever… if i can help, my help will be there with a ton of soothing words and helpful advices.

Now *SOME* of these people, who i am very close with, whome i have never ever EVER stoppped giving them every thing and anything, just decided to bite me back!!!

Now im the one in need. now im the one who stands by helpless with hits coming from all around me, merciless hits… FROM THEM!!!  You are hitting me, and what more do u want me to do? Beg for your help? Don’t you remember anything that i have helped you with? Anything good that i have ever made happen for you? all of you?

I could be a bitch about it. I could treat you exactly like you are treating me, and have been treating me all along. I could simply refuse to help you the next time you are in dire need of help. and i could simply say no just because im selfish… like you, all of you, always do… no, i can come back and bite you and demand back what i have given you once and give it RIGHT NOW… like now NOW NOW… like you are doing to me, mercilessly… but no, im not going to stoop to that level. I am much much classier than that.

But… unlike you, i will never forget.

I will never forget that when it was my turn, instead of extending a helping soothing hand and WAITING, which you can simply offer me, instead of that, you decided to give me the cold shoulder, and slap me across the face with the hand that i thought was extended in help…

I will never forget that no, in this life, no one matters. It’s me, and only me that matter, because one day im standing all ALONE, needing help, and i look around and guess what? Instead of ur help, i get scathing remarks and unaccounted for demands…

If i would open up my book… ooooh boy!!! You all owe me SO MUCH… but i choose not to brag and demand.

and if i want to get my self out of this, i can point my finger at your precious, one of you, whome very recently i have helped out, just so his dream and his hearts desire can come to life, unlike what you have wished for, and i demand him to help me in EXACTLY the same way i helped him. Putting him in despair like you have put me…

But still… no. I’m not that kind of person.

From now on, this door is closed. This well is dry. and this open human charity bank is bankrupt!!!

7asbya allah wa ne3ma il wakeel… ne3ma il mawla wa ne3ma il naseer :~(

Świdnik *** Ok just now i realize i must have sounded like Gollum saying “myyy preeciooouuss” from LOTR… do forgive my lack of words, for i am hearbroken now… People are mean!****